Getting their attention is half
The task

And no one likes it simple
It isn't difficult enough
To tap the shoulder
Bat the eyes
Shrug and
Ask

With Axe in hand
I plan to pry
Through layers of cat fur
Delving past
Claws
Scent and
Sex

It's not women
It's not rocket science
It's not law
Or a new age appliance
To be considered complex

Words painted
On the inside of my teeth
Waiting for the coaxing moment
Whispering a vex
Waiting for whomever stands in my way
Waiting for whomever
Is next.

I hate this
I hate this
I want to hate you
I really want to

How much easier it would be
If you really hated me

Week two is over
But your voice isn't here
You must be fucking girls
That look like me
And I can't fake that I don't care

You must think I'm worthless
Cruel, weak, and broken
And that's a good reason not to talk
I already know, then

I wish you'd just tell me
You won't ever talk to me again
I wish you'd just tell me
You don't want to be my friend
I wish I could stop
Waiting for your call
Then I could stop wishing
And be just another girl on the wall

Never have my thought bubbles filled my room
Painted my walls
Every shade of bitch

Like I'm speaking too loudly
But the volume is just high enough
To curl one side of my head

False red locks tumble down
Unhoned talents
Things I wish to be
Left alone

But no!
Improve Impress Impatient
Forever in a state of discontent
Settling down in chains for the next seventeen years
Brain tissue for rent

Where acronym tests bind my hands
My teeth, mouth
And my mind

Because, what justifies good enough?
My money's worth is undefined
My value is unknown
But my intelligence I've out grown
My transcript
Has been ripped
Taped
Framed
and Thrown

Because I know no better
And I can't fit my life into designated lines
That pencil is lack luster
And so I do not shine

I can't say I care.